Got partially moved.

Well I have been in Calhoun since Friday living with my daughter and son in law, Its so quiet and peaceful here with a beautiful front yard and beautiful scenery. I feel so blessed to have a place to live and have family who care about me. But at the same time I am finding out the hard way that people are not always what they seem. one person whom i thought understood what i was going through with loseing my husband , then finding out during a 6day stay in the hospital that I have congestive heart failure seemed to be more interested in the money and not about tenant that had been for 12 years Nov 2023 would have been 13 years. I wish their could be more humanity in this world, love and caring. so many have gotten away from the love and care of the people and only concerned about money. 

Getting ready to move

Today i am making a decisions on what to keep and what to let go  I have 12 years of belonging of mine and my late husband. life is hard and challegeing  The 23 of this month was my husbands birthday, the 31st of August was my wedding anniversary those days are really hard to get through , January 14th my mother will be deceased for 4 years another day thats hard to get through. I hope that lord will have mercy on me and i will some how be able to move forward.

Losing my home

 On Saturday I will be moving out of my home I can't afford to stay since my husband passed away I have lived in here for 12 years, So this is another lost, I have good and bad memories, But I know I have to move forward no matter how hard it is, I have mixed feeling, I know God says he want put more on you than you can handle but I believe he does or my faith is not as strong as it needs to be. Or is the extreme grief I feel right now.

Surviving mental illness and loss

 i am Michele, I suffer from bi polar disorder but at the present time i am grieving the loss of my husband, he passed away on June 8 2023 , Since then i have alot of dark days and can not move forward, 99% of the time I can not think clearly, I feel my life has been stolen from me. I waited 7 years to get married after the divorce of my first husband. I knew that my husband  had alot of health problems, but my husband was always determined to live and to enjoy life to the fullest but when he had the 2nd stroke the onset of dementia all of the determination was taken away. I always kept hope for a miracle to happen, but the miracle never happen. 

 try to keep on living became unhopeful, then he developed a bad case of dementia and didn't know who i was.